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I can’t believe I’m saying this, but flying to Iran and getting through to the IK Airport happened quite smoothly and without any trouble. =) I mean the whole IK Airport experience was quite unusually easy… Our luggage arrived with no delay, and our hand luggage + suitcases where only put through the scanner, all together, and no one opened ANY of our luggage.. they didn’t even tell us to take out our electronics, just the notebooks! And we just simply walked through the sensor thang, and no one checked our clothing… in fact no one even looked us in the face during the whole process! We were out of the Airport in about half an hour after our arrival!!!!! I mean… heck, when was the last time that happened in Iran?? =) Very nice surprise there….

Then Mahyar came after us and drove us [and all our suitcases, oh yeah! ;)] home. It was such a wondrous experience seeing Tehran again after 6 years.. and arriving home broke me into tears. Thanks to our beloved friends, our apartment [yes, we’re actually staying in our own home this time..] actually looked quite livable since the very moment we arrived.

Up to this moment, I’ve mostly been doing 2 things:

– Having fun with our friends who are coming here back to back to see us + going out with TanTan,

– Taking my old “stuff” out of closets, huge packages and storage… making decisions as to what will be kept and what will be thrown away, and re-packing what I’ll be sending to Switzerland… And by “stuff” I mean… all sorts of things…. from drawings of the 2 year old me, to my Nintendo games… to old pictures… to letters… to…. oh God… this part has not been very easy, I can tell you that…..

So I haven’t done a lot of Tehran seeing as of yet, and there’s a large ton of my friends that I haven’t had the chance to visit yet… but will be doing that in the coming days, and possibly after a short visit to Shiraz. =)

Will be posting updates here on regular basis [well, as regular as possible in here!], and photos will follow soon. 😉

Backpack Acquired!

So, after a whole lot of searching and being as horribly picky as I usually am about my gear, I finally found me the perfect backpack to have support for my notebook, as well as the rest of my rather massive load of stuff. And to my un-surprise, it turned out to be Swiss Gear. Love it!

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  • Stargate Universe & Me!

    U2-1219787280So last weekend, finally after months of waiting, I watched the 2 hour premiere of Stargate Universe. I’ve been playing in my head a bit with what I saw… I guess it’s too early to actually have an opinion about the series… but I can say that so far, I totally love the plot, and almost totally hate the characters! =P

    Dr. Rush is basically the only character that I actually like so far. But I guess, on the other hand, it’s going to be quite interesting to watch a bunch of people this time around who weren’t actually meant for this, are not necessarily the best of the best, and mostly are just simply not supposed to be there. I suppose there’s going to be some very interesting character development going on for the crew in the new series.

    Well, looking impatiently forwards to this weekend for the 2nd episode….

    The Pain….

    A really amazing poem by Dr. Ali Shariati. Sorry for not translating, would really kill the feeling. The main theme is around how a true human’s humanity causes them to take in a great deal of pain in this world..….

    I also created a Verse page for Dr. Shariati here. It’s still empty-ish but well… working on it. Feel free to join add stuff….

    خدایا کفر نمی‌گویم،
    پریشانم،
    چه می‌خواهی‌ تو از جانم؟!
    مرا بی ‌آنکه خود خواهم اسیر زندگی ‌کردی.
    خداوندا!
    اگر روزی ‌ز عرش خود به زیر آیی
    لباس فقر پوشی
    غرورت را برای ‌تکه نانی
    ‌به زیر پای‌ نامردان بیاندازی‌
    و شب آهسته و خسته
    تهی‌ دست و زبان بسته
    به سوی ‌خانه باز آیی
    زمین و آسمان را کفر می‌گویی
    نمی‌گویی؟!
    خداوندا!
    اگر در روز گرما خیز تابستان
    تنت بر سایه‌ی ‌دیوار بگشایی
    لبت بر کاسه‌ی‌ مسی‌ قیر اندود بگذاری
    و قدری آن طرف‌تر
    عمارت‌های ‌مرمرین بینی‌
    و اعصابت برای‌ سکه‌ای‌ این‌سو و آن‌سو در روان باشد
    زمین و آسمان را کفر می‌گویی
    نمی‌گویی؟!
    خداوندا!
    اگر روزی‌ بشر گردی‌
    ز حال بندگانت با خبر گردی‌
    پشیمان می‌شوی‌ از قصه خلقت، از این بودن، از این بدعت.
    خداوندا تو مسئولی.
    خداوندا تو می‌دانی‌ که انسان بودن و ماندن
    در این دنیا چه دشوار است،
    چه رنجی ‌می‌کشد آنکس که انسان است و از احساس سرشار است

    “دکتر شریعتی”

    W. Somerset Maugham – The Magician

    I just finished reading “The Magician” by Somerset Maugham. Yes I’ve been on a bit of a Maugham marathon lately, I truly enjoy his works. I had never read “The Magician” before, and I’m glad I finally got the chance. In addiction to the usual genius of his style and the philosophical dilemmas, there’s a ton of sci-fi and a good deal of horror in this one! =) 

    One thing that didn’t surprise and yet fascinated me was the way Maugham builds the character of Oliver Haddo. He has this true genius for bringing to life the most horrifying, grotesque and complex characters. “Charles Strickland” in the “Moon and Sixpence” is another great example, in fact I can’t help noticing certain similarities between Haddo and Strickland. Maugham seems to have had a personal fascination with creating these monstrous characters, through which he can make his points regarding the complexities of human nature, much better and much sharper than he ever could, through pictures of niceness and nobility. 

    Maugham has very often based the main characters of his books upon a real world person. Charles Strickland was based on Paul Gauguin as I wrote in a pervious post, and apparently Oliver Haddo was based on Aliester Crowley. So, Maugham takes some of the most outstanding characteristics of an already magnificent [in either a positive or a negative way!] personality, and then ads his own special ingredients to create the main characters of his books. The heavy contrast caused by the moral and behavioral difference between various characters in the story, magnifies the personality traits of each of them further.

    Of course in Case of Oliver Haddo, given the bizzare personality of Aleister Crowley, the end result is quite the perfect source of horror……..

    Nickelback – If Everyone Cared

    From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
    Confusing stars for satellites
    I never dreamed that you’d be mine
    But here we are, we’re here tonight
    Singing Amen, I, I’m alive
    Singing Amen, I, I’m alive
    [Chorus:]
    If everyone cared and nobody cried
    If everyone loved and nobody lied
    If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
    Then we’d see the day when nobody died
    And I’m singing Amen
    Amen I, Amen I, I’m alive
    Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I’m alive
    And in the air the fireflies
    Our only light in paradise
    We’ll show the world they were wrong
    And teach them all to sing along
    Singing Amen, I, I’m alive
    Singing Amen, I, I’m alive
    (I’m alive)
    [Chorus x2]
    And as we lie beneath the stars
    We realize how small we are
    If they could love like you and me
    Imagine what the world could be
    If everyone cared and nobody cried
    If everyone loved and nobody lied
    If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
    Then we’d see the day when nobody died
    When nobody died…
    [Chorus]
    We’d see the day, we’d see the day
    When nobody died
    We’d see the day, we’d see the day
    When nobody died
    We’d see the day when nobody died…..

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  • Iran – The Days To Come….

    Ideas have been brought to light. Actions have been taken. Words have been said. Covers have been blown. I can’t help the feeling that many people are now beyond the point of no return. If a change doesn’t come now…. well, I don’t even want to imagine the kind of Iran we’ll see after this. It would be a true nightmare.

    The threatening speech from the supreme leader today indeed sounded like an ultimatum. I fear the shape of things to come, but I prefer not to think about the fear. I have hope……I still have hope.

    I take a great deal of comfort in the fact that we’re not alone……

    The Pirate Bay really does rule! =) Check out the current logo!

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  • A few days ago I finished reading “The Moon and Sixpence” by William Somerset Maugham, for what I believe to be the sixth time. I’ve read this book in different seasons of my life, and it feels like every time I read it, I get something new out of it to busy my mind with. The book is semi-fictional novel about the life of a genius painter called Charles Strickland, who doesn’t mind making sacrifices of any magnitude at his own or other people’s cost, in the pursuit of his special vision of beauty and art. Charles Strickland’s character is fictional, but it is based on the real world painter Paul Gaugin, who happens to be one of my favorites.

    I’ve always had this habit that when I’m reading a book, I create something of a movie scene in my head and bring the characters of the book I’m reading to life. I see them in their movements and their conversations, and sometimes, if a book fascinates me enough, I may end up imagining myself facing these characters, wondering what I would say or do if I where placed in the circumstances of the story. I guess that gives me a better understanding of these characters, and what they face in the course of the book. I think that perhaps while reading The Moon and Sixpence this time around, I felt more sympathy towards the narrator and the grave challenge he is facing in his rather peculiar relationship with Strickland, and the difficulty and confusion he has to deal with, when trying to describe how he perceives Strickland, his actions and his work of art, specially since he can’t even quite decide what it is that he feels towards Strickland. Well, perhaps my sympathy is due to the fact that I’ve found myself in his shoes in occasions.

    The first time I read this book it was in my very early teenages. I remember being deeply taken by it, as Maugham’s way of describing those complex details of the mind of a human being, is simply fascinating. I also remember another element quite well: the acute horror I felt when I brought to life Strickland in my mind and imagined myself facing him. And from what I’ve gathered from discussing this book with it’s other fans, I’m not the only one feeling this way.

    Well, Strickland is not exactly a sociopath. He’s not a serial killer, and as a matter of fact if one were to face Strickland in the real world, there would really be no immediate danger to worry about. Then what is it about him that induces such horror? Well, I suppose it’s mostly about what he does not, rather than what he does. The void, the gap, the emptiness. The narrator goes all the way to Paris with the intention to appeal to Strickland’s sense of human compassion, morality or responsibility, only to find out that he had none. In his consuming and obsessive quest to bring to canvas his unique vision of beauty and art. he had left his humanity behind.

    So there’s the narrator, horrified, shocked and repelled by Strickland’s lack of human values on one hand, and absorbed and mystified by his courage and genius on the other. He can’t stand the way Strickland doesn’t mind destroying the lives of people who for some reason or the other care about him, with his complete disregard. And he can’t hate him enough to dismiss his invitation for a drink. He admires and loathes Strickland at the same time. He may have a lot of reasons to detest the very sight of Strickland, but when Strickland is deadly sick, he helps Stroeve in taking care of him, knowing full well that Strickland would never do the same for him. In fact he knows quite well that he could have a drink with Strickland every day of the year, and yet Strickland wouldn’t give a two penny if he receives news of his death.

    And then there’s Dirk Stroeve, who’s not exactly an observer. He’s the true friend, one cursed by his own good will and positive nature. He receives Strickland’s colourful insults with a kind of patience that only he would be capable of. He takes Stroeve to his own home and looks after him when he’s sick, only so that Strickland would call him a sentimental fool, and then annihilate everything that mattered to him and leave him with absolutely nothing. Strickland despises Stroeve, only because Stroeve tries to help him despite of his loathsome behavior. Strickland sees any gesture of kindness from anyone as a some form of a “trick”, as he puts it, to put a leash on him, or to control or manipulate him in some way. And that, is the horror. It’s the narrator’s pointless struggles to bring the smallest sign of sympathy out of Strickland, and finding out that there is none. It’s trying to explain the effect of a colour complex to someone who is born colourblind. It’s the bringing down of human compassion to the level of a control mechanism, or sentimental foolishness.

    I have to mention that as far as I know, the events of Paul Gaugin’s life are similar to Strickland’s, but not his behavioral characteristics. I guess that’s a relief, I somehow feel that I couldn’t enjoy looking at his paintings if he really were like Charles Strickland. 

    Thoughts….

    There are things you can annihilate simply by forgetting about them…..

    Something that just came to my mind… certainly neither a new nor an original thought. =) Reminds me of that episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer [insert your jokes here! =P] where this high school girl starts fading [literally, disappearing!] Because she was completely neglected by everyone. Interesting idea…. even though I don’t believe that you can actually make people invisible by forgetting about them [too bad! ;)], but I do believe that there are things in this world that you can literally destroy by forgetting about them. Of course you don’t see it happen.. till you give / receive a reminder and that’s the moment when you know it’s all “gone”.

    Anyway…. here’s the track of the day, which I totally luv, through Blip.fm, which I’m starting to like! =) 

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